Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Just when you think it's safe........

Ok, cue the theme from Jaws.........
I made a comment on addictionjournal.net's blog that my son was being abstinent but not working a recovery program. I said I had hoped he was getting honest with himself and perhaps his abstinence was the first step to getting off the crazy ride.
Yeah....feelings are not facts. I just find out the facts later than sooner since he doesn't live with me.
I still hold out hope that he will find his way but he's not ready I guess. Only he will know when that is.
Me, I am good . I truly have gotten honest with myself that this is his business. I love him unconditionally and that will never change. But, I cannot be Martin Brody scanning the horizon while my son is in the water.
There are no sharks circling me...my seas are calm.

1 comment:

Summer said...

I'm sorry your son is still struggling but it's such a huge step, as a parent of an addict, to be able to say "I'm okay" even when our kids are in the midst of this drama. I know it's not easy to get to that place....still working on it myself but reading a post like this gives me a lot of strength.