Thursday, March 28, 2013


A good night!

Birthday Prep

Today is my son's 25th birthday. He is coming over to have dinner. I am  making his favorite meal and bought a banana cream pie for dessert ( He will take all the leftovers back to his place, especially the pie!)
I "prepped" my house before I left work this morning for the celebration. Instead of hanging streamers and balloons, making sure I had birthday plates and napkins and wrapping colorful gifts, I made sure any and all medications are locked up, any liquor was put away upstairs and any important papers and other things of value were upstairs under lock and key as well.
Yesterday, I went to the grocery store and bought him some food staples and some personal hygiene items.
I decided that was the thing I could be ok with doing. No gift cards he can sell and of course, no money.
I feel really good this morning, I am good with what I am doing.
I am going to take Annette's suggestion and write his birth story and give it to him.
I am looking forward to tonight.

Friday, March 22, 2013


Your birthday is less than a week away
I sit here pondering what to say
Do I reach out and ask if we can share
The day I watched your little eyes stare
At me, your mom, with innocent wonder
Or would asking be a terrible blunder?

Am I strong enough to realize
You no longer look back with innocent eyes
When the day is over
Will I let go
Stop searching for a truth that just isn't so?

I love you son
With my heart and soul
But these past several years
Have taken it's toll

I guess I still have to think this through
Before I can make any plans with you