Sad

Another Mother's Day has come and gone. My son was transported to prison Monday May 5th and is in the intake phase of the process. It says on the Department of Corrections website that new inmates will not have phone/mail privileges for 7-10 days during intake. So, I wasn't expecting any call on Sunday as it was only 7 days at that point.
I am very raw emotionally right now and I seem to cry at the drop of a hat. My daughter took me to a very nice dinner after she was off work. Before she came home, I spent most of the day crying. I realize it isn't as if my son has showered me with affection these past several years but knowing where he is just makes me sad.
This feeling has continued and today as I was having lunch I was reading about LeBron James nearly 50 point game last night. That led me to thinking about the last time I saw my son wearing his Heat jersey. It was at my daughter's graduation party in June 2011. I had noticed he was sitting all by himself at a table and looked entirely lost. That thought of noticing how out of place he looked back then opened the floodgates again.
I did see him in the county jail the Sunday before he left and he looked so good. He has been clean for over 8 months. I pray he continues to serve his time in the most productive way possible and can
get through this phase of his incarceration as well as he did at the county jail. He is a small guy, not a violent person at all and I know that he will have some tough times ahead. Hopefully, he will be brought back for judicial release in a few months. Please keep him in your thoughts.

Checking In.....

Happy New Year to everyone!  Not a whole lot has changed. My son is still in jail. His pre trials have been postponed continuously, this past Tuesday's has been re set to late February. The process is very slow but the upside to it is that he has been drug-free for 5 months, he has put on much needed weight and he can't get smokes either. I visit him from time to time and he writes to me. Its sad that it came to this point for the two of us to have clear-minded dialog, but I believe that things are happening for reasons greater than my and his desires.
I have been reading blogs daily and I know there are good things and not so good things happening in other's lives. I think about and have good thoughts for everyone whether they are celebrating their loved one moving forward or whether they are despairing that their loved one is still battling the demon.
I'm glad that we have each other to understand and support. I may not comment on other's blogs as often as I should but believe me when I tell you that every sentence I read has an impact on me. Sometimes I smile, sometimes I tear up and always I give all of you out there a virtual hug!